So, I have not had a blog since they were the cool thing to do in Middle School. It's time to be cool again.
I don't let bad things get me down. I'd rather talk about it and move on. So, here we go.This last semester, everything I have done was done so that this fall semester I would be a legitimate student at the University of Arkansas.
Unfortunately, I have just been notified that over half of my credits will not transfer and that I will receive zero financial aid from them. I will have a meager 9 credits upon entering U of A. On top of that, it is a considerable amount more expensive then MSSU. (I.E. A parking pass at MSSU = $20, at U of A = $500) That's not gonna fly. I'm not one to fight the current. I like to go with the flow and let fate happen. And for some reason, I am thinking this is fate. I have been fighting leaving MSSU for TWO whole semesters now. Yet, every time nothing works out and I'm right back where I started. I am a firm believer that if something is meant to be it will happen with no kinks. I think it is time I take the hint. I'm tired of fighting the inevitable. Maybe there's a reason I'm here. Maybe (as much as I hate to say it) this is where I need to be right now.
For the past few weeks or so I have kind of felt like I am cheating myself. I have always said if I am going to transfer, I am getting the heck out of here. And transferring just an hour away is pointless. If I could pack it all up and go to the school of my dreams, ( A school in Austin, Seattle or Boston) I would in a heartbeat. So, what is the point of transferring now, losing tons of credits and not ending up where I want to be?
Right now, I am done with constantly looking for bigger and better. I am going to find happiness with where I am. I am going to make the most of it and just sit back and see what happens. I don't want to make assumptions about where this next semester will take me, but I know it can only get better. I am content with not knowing.
Also, I am missing the man of my dreams tonight.
To everyone who gets the joy of seeing him tonight, think of me during "A Girl Named Go".
While you are having the time of your life, I will most likely be pounding beers and cursing a ton.
Dang, Riss. I'm sorry it hasn't worked out for you. Money sucks. Even at a cheap school like MoSo, it still sucks like heck.
ReplyDeleteIt's always good to fight, but also good to be able to know what is best for you and when.
You're always been extremely stubborn, headstrong and confident in yourself, so I have no doubt you're still obviously bound for a crazy awesome life-- but if there was no salt, there would be no flavor!
I love you girl-- I know you'll make your own way through all the crazy mess.
You will still have a cool life no matter what you do. You will know what to do when it feels right, and then those choices will lead to your great life, for better or worse. but for now, enjoy everything, don't miss out on nothing, and take in the small stuff, even if it's for the moment. Good things will come, for the ones who fight, and wait.
ReplyDeleteLarissa,
ReplyDeleteI will be praying that God will give you assurance that MSSU is where you're supposed to be. I know he will. I know that he's keeping you there for a reason. I love you so much, and can't wait to see you at Hannah's wedidng.